Simple

Sometimes I long for simplicity, to live a life that is devoid of all the things that makes us wired and connected. Often times I find myself dreaming of ways to disconnect from all the chaos. I dream of leaving the life I know, only taking my necessary possessions, and finding some small cabin, with a fireplace, in the middle of nowhere where I can call my home. I would find a simple job that would bring in income, and when I wasn't working I would spend the rest of my time reading, writing, hiking, playing with my dog, or maybe even take up fishing. I would plant a little garden too. Grow some green beans, and various herbs. Fruits as well, because what is life without blueberries, and strawberries. I'm not quite sure what it says about me as a person to wish for this so often. I'm also not quite so sure what it says about me to wish so much. Stillness is want a long for at times. I long to be in a place where the only thing that moves is the nature and weather around me. To have room to think where there isn't the noise of industry clouding my thoughts.

Anyway, I could ramble on but I won't keep you any longer. Just a passing thought.

The Gundersen Family- Wandering Bird

Oh and a movie recomendation: The River Why

Open Letter To Myself

So, this really is just going to be a letter for myself. Something for me to go back to and remind myself of from time to time when I need it. You are (obviously) welcome to read it, and if it happens to help you, read it again if you ever need it.

Emily,
    You are reading this because something right now is stressing you out/ making you feel kind of down. Well, here's the thing...you know you can do this. Whatever it is that is going on will, in time, pass. As you very well know, even if things feel bad right now they will get better in time. Don't let whatever it is weigh on your heart too much. You know you have a bad habit of being way too hard on yourself and letting life and other things weigh your heart down and make it feel heavy. Remember that there is only so much you can do, and if you have done everything in your power to help the situation, there is nothing else you can do but remind yourself that tomorrow is a new day and try to make it a better one then the last. Also, remember that hard times are the best times for growth and knowledge. Once this bad patch has run its course, you will come out of it having learned more about life, and about yourself, none of which is a bad thing. Do not think that a rough patch defines who you are or how your life will be. This only fills the pages in the story of your life, and makes the read much more worth the while. Take time and just breathe. Take a moment away from everything and remind yourself that there is calm amongst the chaos. Listen to songs that make you happy, and do something that you love. Those things will help remind you that things aren't as bad as they seem. Also, don't be afraid to talk to your friends about your worries. They are your friends for a reason and will listen. They have probably already prodded you and asked what is wrong, (because you like to think you can hide your feelings when you're upset, but you can't. You wear your heart on your sleeve  even though you think you don't. Everyone can see it but you.) and more than likely you said that everything was ok, and that you're just tired. We know that's not true, so just let them know what's going on. They asked for a reason, and that reason is because they care. Telling them what is bothering you is not this big burden to them that you think it is. It really is ok to vent, so do it! So now, my last bit of advice is to remember that Christopher Robin said "If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together, there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart, I'll always be with you."

Here are some songs that might help you feel better