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I know I've been absent from here for a minute. I've been a little all over the place in just about every sense of the phrase. So, in an attempt to just put something up until I can actually form a proper and coherent sentence, here are some bits and bobs for you.

Lana Del Ray- Young and Beautiful.

This is off of the Great Gatsby soundtrack which is in a word, amazing.

I laughed so hard.

Hug

Have you ever had a day when you just needed a hug, but also just didn't want to explain why you needed it? Just a hug without an explanation?

Yeah, it's one of those days.

The Language of Flowers

This is the title of a book that I just finished that has definitely left an impression on me. The main thing that drew me to this book was that the core of it was about flowers and their meanings. The book even comes with a flower dictionary that you can refer to, and I found out that there is an even larger companion dictionary that you can buy, and I REALLY want it!!!

When I first picked up the book I instantly turned to the dictionary to look up the meaning of my favorite flower: Orchid- Refined beauty. To me, it's so befitting of an orchid. The unique and varying shape of the petals and color combinations are always eye catching, but never loud or abrasive. It's a flower that can stand on its own, and there has always been something about this flower that has caught my attention. Of course, after I then proceeded to look up other flowers that I admire like : Wisteria- Welcome, Poppy- Fantastic extravagance, and Tulip- Declaration of love. Then after looking over every definition present I dove head first into the story. I wont get into the details of it, but it was very good. Sad but moving, and serious but light hearted at the same time.

There is something so very moving about words. The fact that one word can have a definition that expresses so much, and mean so many things is both fascinating and kind of sexy. I have forever been fascinated with kind of obscure words and definitions for the simple fact that the more seemingly obscure, in a way the more beautiful the definition. It's as if these words find there way away from the limelight because they are so full of meaning that it would be too much to speak from day to day. It's as if they are words solely set aside for when they are really needed; when it is so absolutely necessary to pack your words with meaning that you drag these words out of the shadows. So then, to read this book and apply this concept to flowers was so fascinating and beautiful.

I feel like this was kind of a weird rant, but nonetheless I am going to leave you with a few flower/word definitions that I have enjoyed recently.


Koi no yokan- (n.) (phr.) The sense one person has upon meeting another person that they will fall in love

Iris- Message

Meliorism- (n.) The belief that the world gets better; the belief that humans can improve the world

Lavander- Mistrust

Scintilla- (n.) A tiny, brilliant flash or spark; a small thing; a barely visible trace

Azalea- Fragile and ephemeral passion

Cryptic, I know, but just stick with me...

Conflicting emotions are quite the bitch. Feeling one thing, but  doing something contrary to that feeling. Trying to do what is probably better for you, but still wanting to do the thing that might not be. It's a strange place to be in...between a rock and a hard place as they say. Unsure if you should go with what is good for you, or what you really want, which may or may not be good for you, or even a possibility. How does one sort out such mess?

The Staves- Facing West

Weekend Spontaneity

If there is one thing I can say that I love, it's adventure. I love getting out and doing something a little unexpected or unplanned for. This weekend, while it wasn't exceedingly crazy, was indeed fun and spontaneous. It began with my roommates and I deciding to go out to see a movie in Alpharetta at Studio Movie Grill. If you've never been, it a theater that serves you dinner during the movie. You sit at these fun little tables, and you can order various kinds of drinks and a good variety of food all throughout the movie. There was a Groupon for a movie ticket and drink for $5, and considering what movies cost now, we thought that was a pretty awesome deal, and decided we would make a night of it and drive out that way. On the drive there, we saw a sign for Dahlonega and I mentioned how much I like the area and how much fun it would be to go. I then jokingly made the comment that after the movie we could just rent a hotel and spend the next day in Dahlonega. To my surprise, both of my roommates agreed with me that it would be fun to do. So, we talked about it a little more, but didn't decide on anything. Then a little bit later we arrive at the theater, and we brought up the idea again while we were waiting for things to get rolling. We all were getting excited by the idea, and we decided that when the movie was over we would make our decision. So, then 2 hours later the movie ends and we all look at each other and say lets do it! This is the kind of thing you're supposed to do in your early 20's, right? So, we then go to the car and proceed to call all of the local hotels around Dahlonega to check for vacancies and prices. Afterwards we set of to the hotel and after stopping at a local CVS to pick up things like deodorant and a toothbrush and toothpaste, we arrive there around 1:30am to settle in for the night. The next morning we grab some hotel breakfast, shower, and get ready for the day ahead of us. We just spent the day wandering around downtown Dahlonega, spending most of our time in antique shops, and making friends with the local dogs and their owners. I didn't end up getting too much only because the things I wanted were too expensive. I did purchase some old WW2 photographs that I will put it another post.

Anyway, I love weekends such as this. It's fun, and a reminder that it's important to make the most of the time you have. There can be fun waiting for you just around the corner if you just embrace it! 

Anywhoooo here are some photos of things I found this weekend.  

This adorable tea cup! 

Absolutely beautiful table and bench. If I had the money and the house, this would have been purchased.

Awesome luggage set and hat that I found. I spent a good minute walking around wearing this hat while carrying the top bag. It was a struggle not to buy this. 

A frighteningly large portrait of Rhett Butler.

My boots that were....not made for walking around Dahlonega all day. Good for a night out though.

Simple

Sometimes I long for simplicity, to live a life that is devoid of all the things that makes us wired and connected. Often times I find myself dreaming of ways to disconnect from all the chaos. I dream of leaving the life I know, only taking my necessary possessions, and finding some small cabin, with a fireplace, in the middle of nowhere where I can call my home. I would find a simple job that would bring in income, and when I wasn't working I would spend the rest of my time reading, writing, hiking, playing with my dog, or maybe even take up fishing. I would plant a little garden too. Grow some green beans, and various herbs. Fruits as well, because what is life without blueberries, and strawberries. I'm not quite sure what it says about me as a person to wish for this so often. I'm also not quite so sure what it says about me to wish so much. Stillness is want a long for at times. I long to be in a place where the only thing that moves is the nature and weather around me. To have room to think where there isn't the noise of industry clouding my thoughts.

Anyway, I could ramble on but I won't keep you any longer. Just a passing thought.

The Gundersen Family- Wandering Bird

Oh and a movie recomendation: The River Why

Open Letter To Myself

So, this really is just going to be a letter for myself. Something for me to go back to and remind myself of from time to time when I need it. You are (obviously) welcome to read it, and if it happens to help you, read it again if you ever need it.

Emily,
    You are reading this because something right now is stressing you out/ making you feel kind of down. Well, here's the thing...you know you can do this. Whatever it is that is going on will, in time, pass. As you very well know, even if things feel bad right now they will get better in time. Don't let whatever it is weigh on your heart too much. You know you have a bad habit of being way too hard on yourself and letting life and other things weigh your heart down and make it feel heavy. Remember that there is only so much you can do, and if you have done everything in your power to help the situation, there is nothing else you can do but remind yourself that tomorrow is a new day and try to make it a better one then the last. Also, remember that hard times are the best times for growth and knowledge. Once this bad patch has run its course, you will come out of it having learned more about life, and about yourself, none of which is a bad thing. Do not think that a rough patch defines who you are or how your life will be. This only fills the pages in the story of your life, and makes the read much more worth the while. Take time and just breathe. Take a moment away from everything and remind yourself that there is calm amongst the chaos. Listen to songs that make you happy, and do something that you love. Those things will help remind you that things aren't as bad as they seem. Also, don't be afraid to talk to your friends about your worries. They are your friends for a reason and will listen. They have probably already prodded you and asked what is wrong, (because you like to think you can hide your feelings when you're upset, but you can't. You wear your heart on your sleeve  even though you think you don't. Everyone can see it but you.) and more than likely you said that everything was ok, and that you're just tired. We know that's not true, so just let them know what's going on. They asked for a reason, and that reason is because they care. Telling them what is bothering you is not this big burden to them that you think it is. It really is ok to vent, so do it! So now, my last bit of advice is to remember that Christopher Robin said "If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together, there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart, I'll always be with you."

Here are some songs that might help you feel better