Lollipop Moment

I thought this was a pretty awesome TED talk. So, I thought I would share.

Inspiration Deficiency

So it's been a while since I have written anything. Now, this is not to say that I haven't started a good many blog posts, because I have. I have started some, then deleted them. I have completed some, then after reading them, decided that they didn't convey my thoughts properly, or thought they were too personal. Who knows, I may even delete this one after I am finished.

I have noticed an unfortunate pattern as of late. That pattern being that I have been having a lack of inspiration lately. I don't know if it comes from feeling to forced to be creative, or if I have just been pushing too many personal and work/class projects together, but its really starting to get to me. I don't consider myself a "artist" I don't think my work is really worthy or that title, but I would rather say I'm a participant in the art process, and lately, my participation grade has only been so so. I'm currently taking two art classes and I haven't really been feeling the spark of inspiration. I can't seem to produce anything that I'm really proud of. Now, I have only had one project in both of these classes so I could have some sort of come back, and be struck with the inspiration stick, but for now it's nowhere to be found. Even in my personal projects, I have not been happy with the product. I have been trying to edit some engagement photos for a bit of time now, and I'm just not particularly happy with the photos I'm producing. I have had other people talk to me about possibly want me to take some photos for them, and as of right now, I don't really have much faith in my ability to do so.

I'm not quite sure how to wash away this funk. I've been debating if I just need to get away; go on a mini vacation, take a short trip, go for a long hike, or maybe just go home for a weekend (although I don't think that would clear my head any). Anyway, I'm going to try and keep positive, and just hope that I can shake this funk.

On a different note, for those out there that are fans of the Hunger Games series, this song by Taylor Swift and the Civil Wars has been released. Now, normally I am not a fan of Taylor Swift, BUT I am a big fan of the Civil Wars, and if feel like they have a stronger influence on the song, even though Taylor is the main voice on it. 

And here is one of my favorite songs by The Civil Wars if you want to check them out.

I posted this a bit ago, but I accidentally deleted it so I'm posting it again.

Emily- Professional Adventurer at your service!

If only one could make a living as a professional adventurer! Unfortunately, I have yet to see a college course entitled adventuring 1001.

A friend of mine and I were talking tonight about places we want to go, and things we want to experience. Over the course of the conversation I started to daydream about a life where I could go to amazing places, and have once in a lifetime experiences. I constantly find myself looking at images, and reading about exotic destinations and the things that make life extraordinary. There are so many things our world has to offer, and so many places where you are in complete awe of the things that surround you. I want to see it all. I want to experience it all. I want to go sky diving, and hang gilding, and scuba diving, and climb mountains, and see... a bear in it's natural habitat, and not behind glass in a zoo. I want to see deserts, and fields, and mountains, and marshes, and lakes, and oceans. I want to absorb different cultures, and people, and sights, and smells, and food! I want to experience it all! Or, at least as much as I can. I feel like at times we take our world for granted. I think we can easily get wrapped up in the mundane day to day nonsense, myself included. We get wrapped up in problems at work, or with friends and family, and we forget to look around and see the kind of amazing place we live in. We forget to take the time and look and experience all the things that life has to offer.

There are so many wonderful places I want to go. I can only hope to be able to visit half. Hence why I wish I could be a professional adventurer, to make my living by...well...living.

The thing that kind of sparked all of this was this image.

This is Ellisons Cave in Walker County, on Pigeon Mountain in Northwest Georgia. It is the 12th deepest cave in the US, and it is over 12 miles long. How awesome is this!! I couldn't help but think how amazing it would be to go caving here. Now, I have no experience with caving whatsoever, so it's highly unlikely that I would be able to go anytime soon, but how great would it be to see this in person! 

New Year Revolution!

So, I happened to come across this challenge called New Year Revolution. For 31 days, you are sent a challenge that you must complete each day. There are three different Revolution categories. There is Stop Wasting Money, Get Fit, and Try Something New. I decided to go with Try Something New. Really, I would like to do all of them but I feel like Try Something New might be the most fun at the moment. ANYWAY. I will attempt to do all 31 challenges and hopefully blog a bit about each, or at least ones I feel that impacted me the most. I will make the effort to try to write about each, but we will see. I'm excited to see what is thrown my way and will keep you updated! If anyone who happens to read this wants to check it out, or join one of the Revoluitons here is the link http://revolution.channel4.com/

Challenge 1:
The challenge I received today is to read a magazine that is targeted for the opposite gender, or a readership very different from yourself.

I decided to pick up a copy of Esquire Magazine. I really wanted to get American Cowboy Magazine, but I actually might pick up a copy of it, depending on what kind of mood I'm in. It's all about contemporary western lifestyle, which seems kind of interesting.

ANYWAY.

I chose Esquire partly because it seemed like a dudes magazine, and partly because I really didn't want to pick up a magazine about cars or deer hunting. Also, when I skimmed through it I saw that there was a small interview with Gary Oldman, and he's pretty boss. So when I got back and started looking at the magazine, one of the first advertisements was about sportswear at JCPenny and on the side of it, it had instructions on "How To Make Your Pecs Dance" which made me laugh. Also, there were A LOT of advertisements for watches...like...a good 10+ advertisements. I guess guys like watches? I was surprised to see that there wasn't that many photos of women, or scantily clad women. Although, interestingly enough, there was a large advertisement for diamond jewelry, that only featured women's jewelry (you know rings and such). Which, on a kind of side note, who decided that diamonds are to be the poster child for the stone to buy women?  I mean, maybe it's just me, but diamonds aren't all that awesome as far as stones go. Personally, I think emeralds are a pretty rockin' stone. Anyway...MOVING ON. The big article in the magazine was an interview with George Clooney entitled George Clooney's Thoughts for Today. It was pretty basic stuff with photos of George playing basketball and sitting in a large armchair.

Overall, Esquire was a pretty basic magazine. Seemed like the guys version some women's magazines I've seen. Well, I'm interested to see what tomorrows challenge is, and will keep you posted!

P.s. this is a pretty cool song. Check it out.

The Fault In Our Stars

So, last night I finished a wonderfully good book called The Fault In Our Stars by John Green. Now, John Green writes young adult fiction, but his books, and this one in particular, always conquer some big life questions. The Fault In Our Stars is about a 16 year old girl named Hazel, who has been diagnosed with terminal cancer, and boy that she meets at a cancer support group named Augustus (or Gus) who has also battled with cancer. Throughout the story, they battle with the questions of life, death, and love (yes, there is a bit of a love story put in the mix). What struck me so much though is the things that Hazel and Augustus have to  endure, and the kind of questions that they start asking themselves, and how they both deal with death. They both (well more so Augusts) struggle with idea of not being remembered after they die. They wonder if or how they will make some sort of lasting impression on the world, so that after they are gone, that someone will remember them. They also struggle with whether or not their lives, and deaths, have meaning. Also, Hazel and Augusts both share a rather raw, and very honest view of having cancer. They don't fluff it up to be this epic battle that they have fought, or try to romanticize anything about cancer. Something that is repeated in the book is how certain things are just a side effect of dying, rather than a side effect of cancer.

Anyway, this book got me thinking about how I might handle everything if I was in their shoes. How would I deal with the possibility of dying, and what kind of perspective would I have on life, and death, if I had cancer? I don't particularly fear death now, but if I were to be diagnosed with cancer, would I fear it? Would I fight? Would I give up? Would I be angry? Would I just accept it? It's an interesting thing to think about.

Well, I don't believe I can really do this book justice by my little post here. It's a wildly good, and moving story. I will admit, I cried like a baby at the end, but I have no shame! haha

I thought I would end this post with a quote from the book that I enjoyed. In this part of the book, Hazel is sitting on the couch with her father, and she has asked him if he believes in the idea that everything happens for a reason and that in the end we all go and live in the clouds and have a happily ever after kind of story, and at first, he says he is not sure what he believes, but then a few moments later answers with this:

           "That's what I believe. I believe the universe wants to be noticed. I think the universe is improbably biased toward consciousness, that it rewards intelligence in part because the universe enjoys its elegance being observed. And who am I, living in the middle of history, to tell the universe that it-or my observation of it- is temporary?"
                     -John Green, The Fault In Our Stars

Why I like rainy days

Rainy days, are possibly my favorite days. I've heard that some do not like them because it feels depressing, or gloomy, and I can understand that idea, but it has a very different feeling for me.

To me, when it rains, it's the best time for reflection. I tend to find myself reflecting on the current on goings in my life. I think about what I am happy with and the things I may want to change. It brings me a very peaceful feeling. The rain feels like a way to wash away all of the things that may be weighing heavy on my mind or things that I may be worried or stressed about. When it rains, I usually try and take that time to bring myself back down to earth and look at things in my life with a fresh perspective. Sometimes, I feel like it can be easy to get caught up in the things you feel like you can't change, and on rainy days I try and and think about how I can make the situation better. I may not necessarily solve the problem, but I try to look at it in such a way where I don't feel so overwhelmed or trapped.

Also, there is (to me) something about the rain that makes the world around me more beautiful. The trees are greener, and flowers pop against the grey sky, and the water rests on the leaves giving them a kind of gloss. I love looking at trees that have moss or fungi growing on them. The brown of the bark is such a deep color and the greenish blue of the moss just stands out in a really amazing way. I don't really do it anymore, but back home, when it rained, I usually made it a point to take a walk. It sounds kind of weird, but I always thought that was the best time to do so. It's nice because not too many people are out and about, and it makes it a great time to just soak up life and the things around you. I could probably stand in the rain for hours. I also enjoy watching birds when it rains. Their feathers become slightly saturated with water and it's cute to watch them puff up and shake of the moisture.

Rainy days are also the best movie days. I like to turn off all of the lights, open the windows, crawl under a blanket, and pop in a good movie. I tend to watch Braveheart because it always just seems appropriate. They are also the best cuddling days! I admit that I'm a big cuddler. It's probably one of my favorite parts of being in a relationship, so I miss that on days like today.

I also imagine one of the most perfect ways to enjoy the rain would be to sit out on the porch of a cabin in the mountains, in a swing of some sort, under a blanket, and just soak up the view. When I'm at home, I will sit in the garage or under the bit of covered walkway and just watch it rain. When my mothers cat was alive, she used to come up and curl up on my lap and sleep, which was always nice to have a companion. I look back fondly on those moments. I would like to, at some point in life, be able to share these kind of moments with someone. I may be a bit biased, but I just think its a really peaceful experience if you take time to look at the rain and I would love to share that with someone.