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It's amazing to me how some people can be so in love. That kind of love that inspires and moves. The kind that touches the hearts of others and leaves a mark. 

Gregory Alan Isakov- The Stable Song

Greg Laswell- Comes and Goes

Positivity is back folks!

"You can close the windows and darken your room, and you can open the windows and let light in. It is a matter of choice. Your mind is your room. Do you darken it or do you fill it with light?"

Today, I am filling my room with light :)
Happy Tuesday!

Don't think twice, it's alright! 

It's been THAT kind of day...

Today has been....well....tiring. Nothing outrageously bad happened, but damn I feel a bit defeated today.

I try not to let too much get to me. I'm not sure if it seems like it by reading my blog, seeing as when I'm feeling a bit off, I tend to write about it here. However, it just took that one thing to make today just kind of......dumb.

I won't go into what happened, because, again, in retrospect...it's not the end of the world, but I just needed to write something referencing to it.

Anyway...I found this print on Etsy, and I'm thinking about buying it....

Because it's true and I really want to go hiking.

Because Mumford makes everything awesome, and I'm really excited about their new album.
(P.S. the lyrics to this song to not represent my feelings on today...I just really like this song.)

Passing Thought....

Lately, I have had this overwhelming feeling that something in my life needs to change. I need to shift something around, or change something completely.

I've been thinking about it for a while now...what I might change. I've thought of a few different things, but the one I keep coming back to is moving.

Nothing is really holding me here. I'm graduating in December, and other than my roommates consistent nagging of trying to make me stay, after that...I have the chance to make a change. I fluxuate between a major move and something more minor. I don't know what I would do as far as work goes, but I'm trying to figure that part out.

In ways, I feel like it would be silly of me not to move at this point. I've come to this rare time, when nothing and no one is keeping me in one place, and I doubt anyone or anything will come out of the woodwork wanting to keep me where I am. Would I be be a fool to pass this opportunity up?

This post doesn't have a name because I can't think of one. Sorry.

So, I'm getting to that age where my friends are starting to get engaged and married. It's a weird because I don't feel like I'm (or my friends) old enough to be at that stage of my life.When did we grow up into somewhat adults? It's interesting how people at 22 and 23 are getting married; committing themselves to another person for the rest of their life. That's a big thing to do in your early 20's...I mean that's (technically) a life time commitment, right? How do you know that it's the right decision? I guess at any point in your life, marriage is a leap of fate...you won't know if it's forever until you try. Granted, I want to (at some point) get married.

I don't particularly like to admit that I want that, but I do. I don't want it right now by any means, but in the future it would be a nice thing to have. However, sometimes I don't think it will happen for me. I don't mean it in a 'No one likes me. I'm so ugly and no one wants me. I will be forever alone.' kind of way, but in that sometimes I feel like I just won't find that person to settle down with.

I can imagine myself in a little house with a garden and a dog, but sometimes there is a guy/husband there, and sometimes there's not. I've said this to a few of my friends, and they argue with me and tell me that they see me  marrying a mountain man, having a few dogs, and kids (however, the kids are debatable). Now, I know that I am still very young and have plenty of time, but from time to time...I wonder.

Anyway...
    Check this out.

Autumn Excitement!

The weather today was needless to say......WONDERFUL! It doubt it went over 80 degrees, and it seemed as if there was a nice steady breeze all day. Sadly, I didn't get to soak it up as much as I would have liked since I procrastinated all weekend on my painting homework, but I did get out for a bit. Since the weather was so nice though, I did run out and grab some Autumn themed candles! The weather just reminded me that autumn is just around the corner. My favorite time of year!

I get so excited around this time of year. Autumn is possibly by far my favorite season. There is just a feeling to fall that I think does not match any other season. It's hard to describe, but it's a warmth that just grabs hold of me. I love going on walks and hikes during that time of year. The changing colors mixed with the crisp autumn air! In my opinion, there is no better feeling than that. I get so excited for all of the pumpkins, and sweaters, and festivals, and bonfires, and leaves, and colors, and......everything!

So, needless to say, I'm excited about the upcoming season. :)


p.s. The Avett Brothers are coming out with a new album on September 11, but you can listen to the full album on NPR. Here is the link in case you are interested. http://www.npr.org/2012/08/29/160188286/first-listen-the-avett-brothers-the-carpenter#playlist

And for the road

New single from Mumford and Sons new album that will also be coming out this month.

TMI...Sorry.

I'm warning you now. This may or may not be TMI. Depending on if you care to read about sex or not, read on or just disregard this post. Or just skip to the bottom and watch/listen to the song at the end of this.

I apologize in advance.

So more than once in the past few days my sex life has been brought up in conversation...and not by me. I've noticed that a good number of my friends have a fairly active sex life (or at least they try to have an active sex life) and they have no qualms talking about it. I'm not a prude really in any sense, so I don't mind hearing/talking about it, and I really have no opinion on how frequently they have sex.

However...they apparently have an opinion about how frequently I have sex.

I will go ahead and say that I am not a virgin. I never really made the choice to actively have a sex life, nor did I make the choice to stay a virgin until I got married. I told myself that I would wait until it felt right to me, and that only then would I make that choice. If it felt right to wait, I would, if not, that would be OK too. I didn't want to pressure myself in adhering to one or the other. With everything in perspective, I don't regret having sex. It felt right, so it happened. End of story.

The other thing is that I've never had sex (or done more than just kissing) with anyone that I wasn't in a relationship with or had some sort of feelings for. Again, not by choice really, but just because it never felt right any other time, but I've always been ok with that. I've never really had the urge or the need to go and have sex with just anyone, but that's just me. This is a fact that, apparently, is a foreign idea to some of my friends.

It's been almost a year since then end of my last relationship, and so that time equals about how long its been since I've last had sex. I'm really not bothered by this, however a few of my friends are. One person in particular looked like I had just hit his puppy with a baseball bat when he found out how long it had been. He even offered me a freebie because of how long it had been. -__- Number 1. What?! 2. No. 3. If I REALLY REALLY needed/wanted I wouldn't need to ask for a freebie. I'm not being conceited, but I feel like most people, if they really wanted, know someone who could fulfill that urge/need. And 4. NOOOOOOOOOO! The sad thing is he was not the only one to have this reaction.

I just do not understand this level of shock. First, it's my sex life...not yours. If you want to have sex with anyone, whenever...fine. If not, that's cool too. I don't care, just be safe and use a condom. Personally, I just don't put sex on the top of my priority list. If it happens, cool. If not, that's ok too...not a big deal. I really just do not understand that kind of reaction. I think someone even said "I'm so sorry"......Wait. Did I ask for an apology? Do I seem sad about it?....No, so please do not apologize. I'm sorry that this apparently shocks and awes you so much, but I really do not care. I've just learned that I'm a person that doesn't make that a first priority. In reference to affection, I miss holding hands and cuddling more that I do sex. Maybe, that makes an alien, but that's ok by me. Welcome to my planet, earthling.


I've been kind of obsessed with John Mayer's newest album lately. Here are a couple songs.

Shadow Days-John Mayer. I also love this video in part for the scenery. There are some pretty beautiful places in this video.

Age of Worry- John Mayer